this installation was made for the medieval and renaissance hall of the town hall in haarlem.in the renaissance modern science was born.new ideas spread.the body cut open,earth no longer the centre of the universe.old maps of the heavens inspired me as did predictions that the skies fall down on us in times of crisis.the idea is alive again these days.but halley won’t appear,so..

comet halley as depicted in early seventeenth century.a comet predicts disasters..

invitation welfing/vault

mold.drawing on carpet,cut out

sixteen white shirt,male and female,lettered with the song of songs (hooglied),partly cut out to let the words reach the skin.words the woman speaks are on male shirts,the man’s words are on female shirts.hear my beloved,come to the park.it’s handwork,done with pencil and scissors.this is on purpose to make it a fragile work mirroring love relations.wearing and thus cleaning the shirts will cause pencil lines to vanish and cut outs to wear out

kunstkapel amsterdam. (art chapel)

drawing board of my father and a smaller one with photos of sensing an outside world,one with scratched drawing of a grid

coming out

cruise spots in my hometown and at the beach

psssst (once I was in the lead of a charity thrift shop)

these days i delve into the culture I was raised in, the catholic upbringing in a quite conservative protestant country.a closeted gay boys closet so deep i wasn’t even aware of this nature in me for a very long time.but in the end it is what horace (horatius in dutch) said:naturam expellas furca tamen usque recurret.one can destroy nature but it will always return.

still,hairy legs (see vimeo)

night-fall/nacht-val.colorfield,hand stitched with uneven larger cross stitchings.i designed the colorfield as a floor skin,a soft sculpture,a skirt,a shelter

i’ve been waiting too long (thanks marc deconinck)

installation of two photos,hidings

reproducing twink,three photos with pubic hair

for years of cutting my hair.estimated

male extinction

male jewelry,pins

blue boy

cursed

censoring queer existence is common on social media

pistoletti on my mind

sonnet for tomassio (michelangelo)

latin text,one can kill nature,she will always return.cut out on fragment of a male jacket

icarus

coming out

a la ferme,comme un garçon.coming out.prints on pictures from books of dutch landscape

gert hekma was teacher (and founder) of homo studies at the university of amsterdam.in this portrait made after his passing away i wear some of his collection of shiny sports shorts.he was a satinist he said.thanking mattias duyves his partner for the use of the shorts

still,studying on bas jan ader

coming out

for him-embroidered drawing

for spierliederen-poetry by arnold spauwen-cutout poems in a soutane (priests coat)

embroidered and cutout poetry-arnold spauwen

cutout poetry-jacob israel de haan

cutout text on uranus and uranians and personal data

work in progress,see next pictures

cutout of an embroidered jacket.quote from zarathustra-nietzsche

cutout of a quote-david wojnarowicz and personal data

cutout of a quote-walt whitman

cutout in sixteen male and female shirts-hooglied (song of solomon)

stamps-shakespeare

i see nothing/video nihillum-embroidery and stamped text on longing

embroideries on shirt with quotes

work in progress.quote-david wojnarowicz

cutout quote-michelangelo

homo sapiens sapiens homo

cutout in den beginne was het woord-johannes evangelie.start of johns gospel

his mothers unfinished shirt with embroidered poem-george moormann

embroidered poem in the handwriting of the poet.words by george moormann.for his installation and performance stof zijt gij (dust art thou)

embroidered data on our solar system

work in progress.cutting out text-arnold spauwen

embroidered drawing on jacket,composed of three jackets.background,drawing by hans bossmann

work in progress.poetry cutout-arnold spauwen

a glimpse,poem by walt whitman.

shakespeare sonnet on loving him.one of three sweaters

shakespeare,part of a sonnet of loving him

book:de grote houtstraat omnibus,architext haarlem.left drawing with the shop where the jacket originally was bought:chiel braat.middle page photo:mija hesseling

embroidery and text for a book with drawings by chiel braat on the main shopping street of my home town.embroidery:as in many towns shopping street facades are boring.look up,as the upper parts are mostly original.textc;ounting the length of the tree with footsteps.also i counted the use of spaces and number of (few) trees.

paadjes/trails

cutting out five and one and eight.five big planets,one moon,eight smaller planets

atlas

seasonal leaves from main street

circling around a gift from mattias duyves,satin sports shorts of gert hekma

jacket drawing

for him

embroidered drawing for bittersweet manic nature (a project to create openness around bipolair disorder) by michael van der meide,fashion designer.the drawing expresses mania

inside out

verkeerde kant/wrong side.when one wears the jeans onlookers see the backside of the embroidery,in dutch de verkeerde kant (the wrong side) being of the wrong side is used to degrade queers.the fantasy male dominance cherishes

limbo/voorgeborchte.installation in museum zandvoort.two guys dressed in jeans with embroideries in front of three photos in which another guy wears similar jeans while he dances on a scaffolding.under the dancer portraits with a historical feel.three more jeans in a show case.one sees the backside (wrong side) of the embroidered colorfields that are inspired by the hanky code the title suggests queers are predestined to be in (the) limbo forever.if lucky

embroidered drawing green squares on grey

on nietzsche,also sprach zarathustra.alle lust will ewigkeit,will tiefe tiefe ewigkeit.

this boy was in the corridor,on the wall of my primary school

outside of reworked shirt

inside of reworked shirt

collars

front of the inner coat

a coat in front embroidered with dick picks that were send unasked in social media.innocent ken keeping up the cloth on which an extensive embroidered drawing of guys mixing with each other.parallel worlds. after the installation was presented twice in an exhibition i decided to cut out this drawing and use it as an independent work

scratch

scratch drawing on photo

diplomas,cut out gods of the olympus

embroidered drawings,cut out

detail,ixion after goltzius.

rêve de reve.to gerard reve,cut out of a painting attached to a jacket

diary drawing-torn pages:hunt                                         

cut out

drawings with spontaneous words-from the start of this century

dress for succes,the male uniform

michelangelo to tomassio.jacket remade inside out

diaries-torn pages:from john's gospel,in the beginning was the word etc.

john evangelist.in the beginning was the word etc

in the beginning was the word,cut out

portrait.shirt with automatic text on coming out

translated from dutch,let him kiss me with the kisses of his lips

male suit

vest and pants as collar or queue de paris